February 28th, 2012

Okay. Let’s be honest. I had a one week crisis. I did, because I’m not having it right now, it’s over. It has to be. 

I’ve had no time now. I go to work 5 times a week and it’s good. It’s better than sitting at home. It’s money and buying stuff I need. It’s right thing to do and I’m thankful I’ve finally found a job. But I haven’t been doing it for ages and it’s hard to be back on this track again. But I keep going, doing my best. The job isn’t a dream come true, but it’s a great fresh start. And it’s all that matters.

So… The crisis thing, yeah. I didn’t have time and energy for going to the gym right after work. So decided not to go and watch out what I was eating. And I was doing well when I was at work, but then I got home and had a dinner my mom cooked and then I was still hungry. So I ate. A lot.

I haven’t gained all weigh I’ve lost, but I was going up and I had to stop it. And my stomach’s hurt me so much, because I’ve had a little stomach issue and if I eat too much unhealthy food it goes pretty rough.

I’ve decided I need to get my control back - since today for a whole week I’m going to eat only vegetables and fruits and drink water and a little bit of milk. It’s going to be a detox for me and my stomach, because I really want to see how it’s going to react for that. 

Today’s been the first day and I have been doing pretty well. I’ve eaten just 3 carrots, an apple, two bananas and some green grapes and I know it’s horrible but I think it’s a good start - I had to be a little bit hungry and I was. I wasn’t dying and I was drinking water filling me in.

Tomorrow it’s going to be better. I’m going to buy some more veges and fruits and eat much more than I ate today. 

I’m going to survive, hell yeah, of course!